just a reminder folks! now streaming online….new episodes each and every week……this upcoming weekend, a very, very special podcast recorded from the road!!! should be up saturday night or sunday, listen up - it’ll be a gooder…..remote locations and special guests!!!! twang out with your wang out!
I’m 35 years old.
I’ve been taking a lot of stock the last couple of months and I am not exactly happy with the amount of product I have to sort through.
I’ve already written two ‘make amends’ letters this week. Ordinarily I’d rather meet face-to-face for that sort of thing, but geography encourages an alternative. I thought about making phone calls….but, as I tend to ramble and repeat myself when I get excited, the written word seemed more fitting, finite and to-the-point.
Most of my stock-taking and amend-making stems from a small hand-full of things; neglect, abandonment, alcohol, fear, anger and selfishness. I am guilty of either being a victim or victimizing via these things. I’ll not get into details today, but I’m carrying more baggage than my shoulders can take. My shoulders are very strong.
This is the first year of my life, that I actually sat down and wrote New Years’ resolutions. I’ve already trounced my 13th rule - the one I deemed the most important one not to break. This breaks my heart.
I’ve really been putting my head down and working , literally, figuratively & metaphorically towards better days; better times. Future joys to be revealed and experienced. My muscles are sore, my feet are sore, my mind is tired. My hands - especially the knuckles on my right hand - burn. I love it. I had forgotten.
It feels good to write again. My first love.
Other than two great kids and a handful of half-decent songs, I haven’t accomplished very much in my life. I am aiming to change that. I am changing that.
I’m 35 years old.
my new northern outpost has me feeling down. alone. and shitty. couldn’t even go two effin’ weeks without breaking the rules….#13 just crashed and burned. i’m finding it harder and harder to see the point. fucking chest pains. what a disaster. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_73TpOsujs